Even so, as I took on the impending change of ‘Chooselifewarrior’ I went through plenty of emotions. The name itself has become to mean more than my eating disorder recovery, more than the years spent online making supportive environments for others and it became larger than my own personal meaning. It began to take on meaning for others. It began to form support groups, it began to be recognisable in our small community. It became a safe space from diet culture, a strong space of fat activism, a word that took on meaningful eating disorder recovery meanings for many more than just I.
A lot of people don’t understand that my first consult for Double Jaw Surgery was when I was 16 years old. It was a tricky time in my life as I was still very deep in the grip of my eating disorder. At that time overall I had many fears and apprehensions for this surgery. At 16 my Jaw Surgeon suggested the surgery because of my alignment but really the only reason for going through the surgery at that stage would of been cosmetically to fix my underbite. I was not having any issues with my jaw or health problems because of it.